lately, through the magic of facebook, 

i've gotten back in touch with a few of my high school friends. 

and it has been so great catching up. 

it's been wonderful finding out what everyone has been doing.

between raising families, earning phd's, traveling the world, 

dealing with loss, dealing with cancer. 

it's been nice, but it has also brought on some mixed emotions. 

it has made me feel as if i have not done enough since high school.

especially when i find that my grade school friends are now doctors, historians, teachers.

i find myself saying, "i should have..."

school, that job, saved more money...the list is endless. 

and i look at my life and ask 

what have i been doing for the last 10 years?

what's my title?

and yesterday at the park, like a ton of bricks, it hit me.

i'm a mommy.

 i am a mommy.

i am.

that's my title. that's what i've been working for the last decade.

i have been building my family. i chose my husband. my partner. 

who has been a rock through all of our ups and downs. 

through all of my craziness. 

and then we had our babies. and they completed us. 

it is what i chose. i chose to have my family. 

and i'm very lucky to have them.